Yeah man it was tough news to bear, especially knowing that I brought it onto myself. Living with low T for a year and a half hasnt been pleasant either , but it will all be worth it if we are able to conceive. Not everyone gets sterilized by gear so you might be ok. My advice, get your semen analyzed ASAP, that way if you are infertile you can take the necessary steps to get it back. Wish I could go back and cycle on and off properly or just never start.. plan now is to get wife pregnant again, If she misscaries we will be done trying because I dont want to keep putting her through the emotion and physical rollercoaster. Young guys should definitely think about their future and whether they want kids or not before deciding to B&C, wish I would have.