Rektest - Death is available log

i really went back and forth on posting anything, I didnt take a picture Aug 1st because when I started this cut I wasn’t planning on making a personal log, and just to remind everyone, this log was only made so I could view it later on, as the first line of the thread says “personal log”

But here goes..

2019 December I had got down to 220 for a family Europe trip, the world stopped in 2020 and ruined my motivation for the gym, between that and moving from a house to trying to live in an RV (didnt work with a family and 4 dogs, stress)
Resulted in 2022 I got up to my heaviest of 275

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2023 we moved into a house and coincidentally, another europe family trip planned for end of 2023 in December.. so I went from 275 to 232.
Me and my mom from 2023 December until I started lineschool in May 2024 went to the gym every day and I bulked up from 232 to mid 250s running stupid heavy npp during this time, I started line school around 250, ended 260 and my journey here started end of school to today where I am 206 now

Cut pictures will be posted when I am at goal weight.

I am not even the same person that was in that picture. I hate him. I never want to see him again. My goal is with-in arms reach and I have never been this locked in or close, sure I am 100% doing damage to my body but I do not care, I would rather shave off a little of my life and be a ripped cunt then ever be that piece of shit that is in that picture.

I am roughly with-in 15 pounds of being finished, original goal was 200 now at 206 I am gauging 190, ultimately I have to end December 1st for TRT doc
 
+5,000 points for posting a picture you have now earned my respect.

Without taking offense to this you don’t need 700 tren. 500 test and a GLP will get you exactly where you want to go. I’d go as far as saying you’re courageous my dude.
I am fully aware I don’t need the tren, but I need the tren. I understand its destroying me and I throw it to the way side.
 
Thumbs up for posting a starting pic. Diet and consistent training would be a great start.

We are rooting for you and a good tip: Heed advice..it helps!

You don't need tren as others recommended you drop it...best to stay off AAS till you got your training and diet under control, and maybe only supp would be a GLP-1.
 
Thumbs up for posting a starting pic. Diet and consistent training would be a great start.

We are rooting for you and a good tip: Heed advice..it helps!

You don't need tren as others recommended you drop it...best to stay off AAS till you got your training and diet under control, and maybe only supp would be a GLP-1.
Concur totally that now is most assuredly not the time for AAS.

To the OP, Take your pick of one of the weight loss drugs in circulation, and there are no shortage of evangelicals for those around here who consider them the greatest human discovery since electricity to give you guidance. This should help with the overeating problem.

And obviously it’s time to get your diet cleaned up and get on a regular training schedule with a heavy focus on cardio. Your body has been abused with a garbage standard American diet for however many years so it’s time for some self love in the form of nutrient dense meals to build both mind and body.

Once you get the weight under control then we can focus in on building muscle and aesthetics if that is your jam. And AAS of course, but you have to crawl and then walk before you can fly.

You have many people here with lots and lots of experience who are willing to help you and who are In your corner. Take advantage of those resources
 
Sounds like he’s already on TRT via endo for a couple years. Certainly none of this stuff is needed. Not advocating for grams of anything, but not advocating for nothing either. Clear nutrient partitioning benefits to AAS and fat loss attributes to some of them.

He’s gonna do what he’s gonna do. But I would’ve probably tried to suggest something more reasonable like 200 test / 200 tren / 200 mast / 50mg var / 4iu GH; something to the tune of that.
 
Sounds like he’s already on TRT via endo for a couple years. Certainly none of this stuff is needed. Not advocating for grams of anything, but not advocating for nothing either. Clear nutrient partitioning benefits to AAS and fat loss attributes to some of them.

He’s gonna do what he’s gonna do. But I would’ve probably tried to suggest something more reasonable like 200 test / 200 tren / 200 mast / 50mg var / 4iu GH; something to the tune of that.
Ive been on TRT for a while, that picture is prolly alot worse than what I actually started out at in Aug (it was the only picture I had) as I had ran trt+700mg npp+hgh for 4 or 5 months start of 2024 when I went from 232 to 250 ish.

Being already close to finishing, dont see the point in dropping anything as if damage is done the damage is done 3-4 more weeks isnt gonna change anything but I could be in the wrong train of thought jaded by being addicted to the feeling tren gives me.

I already plan to pretty much run the same stack bulking, with maybe swapping tren for NPP, granted my TRT labs dont come back with death and I recover.
 
Just want to say this log is very inspirational. I need to lose at least 40 lbs as I was basically stuck in bed recovering from a car crash and two surgeries. Just started back to the gym a few weeks ago and it's been difficult but also fulfilling.

I subscribed to your thread to follow your journey.
 
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Ive been on TRT for a while, that picture is prolly alot worse than what I actually started out at in Aug (it was the only picture I had) as I had ran trt+700mg npp+hgh for 4 or 5 months start of 2024 when I went from 232 to 250 ish.

Being already close to finishing, dont see the point in dropping anything as if damage is done the damage is done 3-4 more weeks isnt gonna change anything but I could be in the wrong train of thought jaded by being addicted to the feeling tren gives me.

I already plan to pretty much run the same stack bulking, with maybe swapping tren for NPP, granted my TRT labs dont come back with death and I recover.
Yeah I hear you. I’m not suggesting you change anything now; I don’t really like to tell people what doses to run because that’s a personal risk benefit analysis.

19nors always fuck my mental up a bit. If you wanted to give your brain a break, you could throw in EQ + mast and increase your test dose for the bulk.

I’m curious to see the end results of this dude. Dropping weight sucks lol.
 
Ive been on TRT for a while, that picture is prolly alot worse than what I actually started out at in Aug (it was the only picture I had) as I had ran trt+700mg npp+hgh for 4 or 5 months start of 2024 when I went from 232 to 250 ish.

Being already close to finishing, dont see the point in dropping anything as if damage is done the damage is done 3-4 more weeks isnt gonna change anything but I could be in the wrong train of thought jaded by being addicted to the feeling tren gives me.

I already plan to pretty much run the same stack bulking, with maybe swapping tren for NPP, granted my TRT labs dont come back with death and I recover.

Funny how some people looked at the picture, didn't read what you wrote and then proceeded to talk crap. What a surprise.
 
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