Of course you are right. I guess at the end of the day it does not matter if anyone reads it at all. Putting pen to paper or words to keyboard alone has value.
Though as a relative newcomer I do really value the feedback I get from members here. It has helped me refine my approach countless times to my benefit. I am probably too far past my chronological prime (just turned 33 this month) for me to have any serious aspirations of making a run at this thing in a more professional capacity, but I’d be lying if I said the prospect does not still invade my thoughts often.
I’m like that high school walk on for a D1 school who does not have a chance in hell of ever dressing for a game or playing a single snap, but still slaves away on the scout teams anyway hoping against hope that the dream will somehow materialize anyway.
I like to think of it as my little PED / workout / progress "journal". But with the added benefit of interaction from other folks who can chime in and help guide me in areas where I need help e.g., cycling. Or who can chime in and ask for help themselves.
I'm 30, and I'd also be lying if I said I didn't think about trying to make a run at this. But, I also am a realist, and that's just not going to be something I want to do with a kid on the way and also not something I really want to put my body through, or my wife.
Sure I'm using a bunch of stuff now, but if it's a matter of winning? I know myself, and I'll get too tunnel vision into winning at all costs.
Lmao at your D1 walk on analogy. I guess the only difference really is that the process of this is actually fun...football practice and all the prep that goes into game day actually just sucks, lol.
If you think about what I'm doing it's really stupid. I'm 270, trying to get better at cycling, refusing to lose muscle, with a decently high PED load ~1g, and jipping myself of optimal weightlifitng workouts.
Why in the fuck would someone do that? The only answer I have is that: I am just having fun. Enjoying the process. Enjoying my time here.
@readalot put it pretty well when he said something to the tune of "just trying to enjoy my time in this simulation without putting a pistol in my mouth"... now I'm not suicidal or anything like that, but I get bored AF with life easily and have a tendency to channel that boredom in extremely negative ways. This at least gives me something to work on day in and day out that is less harmful than other avenues of mine.
