I would suggest you just stop running gear. You suck. You can’t rely on “sidezzz” to tell if your stuff is accurately dosed.
Every cycle that I’ve run has hit me a different way (or pleasantly hasn’t hit me). I got other shit going on in my life, I sleep differently, work stress is different, the fucking neighbor bothers me differently. There’s too many variables.
I was running a NPP and testosterone cycle this same exact time last year and was waking up in the middle of the night multiple times gasping for air like a claustrophobic sensation. Im running a very similar cycle right now with the same batch of compounds and that hasn’t happened. Im happy with the cycle.
You already know why you don’t make gainzzz. You don’t eat. Simple as that.