Meh, guess I'll drop a good one.
I relapsed on heroin after about 9 months clean. I've been physically dependent on kratom for a few months now but I can deal with that. I was successfully tapering before I relapsed. I had 2 weeks before I had to report to parole again and binged maybe 3 days out of a 7 day week. Got high with my homegirls 52 year old suburban housewive mom. I snorted some and was satisfied for maybe 2 seconds before I busted out a 25g steroid boy (for non drug savvy people... this is not what you wanna use to inject dope lol) and tore my arms up.
I've been off 3 days now, definitely felt it but still made my work outs. My motivation to meal prep has been down and I've been depressed.
I'm not an NA dude but I'm not going to beat myself up over it, never was one to count clean time anyways. Something I heard Kai said kind of motivated "Is it 10 grams more, or ten grams less? Who cares? Just get started" I over think things.
Kind of got a plan to just dedicate time for shit, like 45 minutes to meal prep even if I don't really need anything done at the time. Same with school.