Thanks man I appreciate you saying that. I think my face looked so terrible before is because I was so extremely underweight. Technically anorexic, not anorexia nervous-, but I worked about 110 hours per week for prob 80% of a decade in my 20s and didn’t eat till I got home.
I was 140-145lb very lean in high school though since I was a pro level athlete racing dirt bikes. Also after I nearly died in a crash and got fucked with that I was hooked on opiates deep from 2012-2015. So just grinding working on opiates and adderall like a robot.
To answer your favorite drug question. It seems anything that fits in with my SHBG^ protocol all gave me equivalent results (with the exception of cutting and cosmetic look with certain drugs). To grow I got this idea from vigorous Steve that shbg might be important, and may be why steroids lose effectiveness the longer your on cycle since shbg goes down. And shbg has its own receptor that compliments the regular Androgen Receptor.
That’s all just theory.. but I got lucky by accident and found a way to raise or maintain shbg even on grams and the first time I restored my shbg from 9 to 15+ it felt like I got on cycle all over again. In my opinion the shbg protocol may be part of why I was able to grow faster than average. Test,dht,dhb, proviron, and some others have ability to crush shbg magnitudes higher than other drugs like primo, anavar, deca, tren, boldenone. So instead I’ve run Deca only + estradiol to maintain adequate e2, or EQ+Primo+e2, or Primo+Tren+E2 and end up with an shbg that’s higher than it other wise would be if using test to achieve that same level of estradiol. I use estradiol cypionate right now but have used enanthate and valerate in the past. IMO, the reason why dht derivatives are known for crushing shbg isn’t to do with the primo/mast itself, it’s because they block or lower e2. E2 is the primary shbg
force. And Test+DHT are the primary shbg
force. So test +primo skews the ratio of androgen to estrogens in the body and thus lowering shbg. However primo on its own for example only has an SHBG binding affinity of 3%. Testosterone is 70%, DHT is 100%, proviron is 70-400%. So I found Primo only for example to not crush my shbg level when my e2 was manually maintained with exogenous estradiol. In which case I can take as many mg of primo as I wish and it has no effect on my serum e2 level because all of my e2 is being supplied exogenously.
So long story short, a go to stack for me now has been Primo or boldenone with it without Tren Hex. Tren hex is my favorite Tren ester since for whatever reason Tren E just doesn’t work for me the same way, and tren ace isn’t as long lasting. Tren hex and Tren ace are equal in performance for me and I can’t tell a difference, but Tren hex lasts longer and can be 150mg/ml without any Benzyl benzoate which I also prefer in my oils to be solvent free.