novice here with an unusual problem looking for help

[malfeasance]

and you say all this like taking this stuff is why I'm on disability it's not.

it's my last-ditch attempt to escape the 8 going on 80 at hell that's left me deformed and unable to viable compete with anyone at even the most basic shit you need to function in society I've been living in for almost 20 years.

I WANT TO LEAVE THE BEASMENT but after trying everything I can think of for decades I couldn't even get a job flipping burgers without trying to kill myself.
getting my body to function better is my last shot/best shot at being able to function in society.

I do not know anything about your condition, but it sounds like a lot to deal with. I hope you get the help you need, but that is probably going to be from some sort of expert on this condition and the various ways to treat it, not on a steroid board.

 

[Inspired]

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nope, said I have 2 arimidex prescriptions both from an actual doctor with one going to a compounding pharmacy as you can only get a prescription for 2mg so I alternate them as needed to take 3mg a day.

wrong again,I am on test cream as the sports medicine compounding pharmacy my doctor can send a prescription to so I can pay for it without crypto doesn't do injections, and my test level come back good for a "trt" dose so, it's more important to get the other compounds I can't get any of before optimizing my testosterone delivery method.

next, keeping estradiol at 0 will keep the growth plates open as estradiol is the only thing that ossifies them. people with a mutation in cyp19a1 (which AI's mimic) growth plates never close but as they age gh drops below the threshold to keep getting taller, so you need to take HGH as well.

and I said I went from 300lbs down to 210lbs but still look obese because my face a stomach still makes me look 300 pound.

you said you reread all my post but got everything wrong that's a new low for reading comprehension even for internet forums.

and you say all this like taking this stuff is why I'm on disability it's not.

it's my last-ditch attempt to escape the 8 going on 80 at hell that's left me deformed and unable to viable compete with anyone at even the most basic shit you need to function in society I've been living in for almost 20 years.

I WANT TO LEAVE THE BEASMENT but after trying everything I can think of for decades I couldn't even get a job flipping burgers without trying to kill myself.
getting my body to function better is my last shot/best shot at being able to function in society.

How tall are you?

 

[Amgiji]

Yes, provide the DEXA scans and any other imaging you have. Same thing with the medical records, but redact your sensitive personal information. No other way to help you without seeing what you have.

The bio availability of transdermal administration is not close to intramuscular or sq, in most cases. Real sources are cheaper than pharm medicine, in most cases, but you have to do your own research. No one wants a shill. You want androgenic compounds because you want the masculinity from them. DHT derivatives will do this.

If you don't want to inject you have, off the top of my head, epistane, superdrol, proviron, d plex, winstol, etc. Some are more anabolic than others, more toxic than others.

If you stay in a fucking basement find out how to use bitcoin. Wtf else are you doing down there except exacerbating your porn addiction and stewing in your own shit. Learn, grow your mind if nothing else.

that's part of the plan. main issue is how to suddenly put a large percent of my income in bitcoin without ssi putting it's boot up my ass.

 

[RiceNKimchi]

that's part of the plan. main issue is how to suddenly put a large percent of my income in bitcoin without ssi putting it's boot up my ass.

Sounds like you need a college budget. Ramen noodles, rice, oats, and chicken breast. No sacrifice, no gain. You got delt a shitty hand if you're being honest. Nothing will happen if you do nothing but type on the internet in a basement.


View: https://youtu.be/2aDgH-_G4h0?si=HXm4RksVUIQJV6aL


I found you

 

[Amgiji]

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How tall are you?

if you read all my posts I only have 3 threads (4 if you count the defunct one in the underground) you would know I answered that before.
I live in a taller area so you wouldn't believe how tall people are here so I don't give a number.

but I will give you a functional metric

I'm chest height to the 17-year-olds that I couldn't even beat out to a cashier position at Mcdonal's.

also I am still working on the bone scans it's a lot to type out.
but, it turns out I was shrinking even before I thought I was

bone height in 2019 cm in 2020
L1 3.41 | 3.15
L2 3.51 | 3.47
L3 3.69 | 3.63
L4 3.96 | 3.88

 

[Inspired]

if you read all my posts I only have 3 threads (4 if you count the defunct one in the underground) you would know I answered that before.
I live in a taller area so you wouldn't believe how tall people are here so I don't give a number.

but I will give you a functional metric

I'm chest height to the 17-year-olds that I couldn't even beat out to a cashier position at Mcdonal's.

also I am still working on the bone scans it's a lot to type out.
but, it turns out I was shrinking even before I thought I was

bone height in 2019 cm in 2020
L1 3.41 | 3.15
L2 3.51 | 3.47
L3 3.69 | 3.63
L4 3.96 | 3.88

Just tell me how tall you are.

 

[Rido]

Just tell me how tall you are.

No that's too easy

 

[Amgiji]

Yes, provide the DEXA scans and any other imaging you have. Same thing with the medical records, but redact your sensitive personal information. No other way to help you without seeing what you have.

I can't figure out a way of forming the text into symmetrical columns to line up like on the sheet so you get the summery version
(I can post the incoherent wall of text version if you really need me to)

November 08 2019 age 23.4 years
findings
dual femur total mean BMD 1.046 g/cm2 t-score -0.4 z-score -0.4
AP spine L1-L4 BMD 1.270 g/cm2 t-score 0.4 z-score 0.4

November 10 2020 age 24.4 years
findings
dual femur total mean BMD 1.024 g/cm2 t-score -0.5 z-score -0.5
AP spine L1-L4 BMD 1.339 g/cm2 t-score 0.9 z-score 0.9

only have the interpretation for 2021 (it got lost moving medical records)

December 28 2021 age 25.5 years
findings
dual femur total mean BMD 0.944 g/cm2 t-score -1.1 z-score -1.1
AP spine L1-L4 BMD 1.310g/cm2 t-score 0.7 z-score 0.7


femur bone mineral density had declined significantly since 2019 based on lowest significant change of 0.014g/cm2 this is a 9.3% change since 2019
lumbar spine BMD has remained stable when compared directly to 2019 based on lowest significant change of 0.046

for 2022 they just gave me the cliff notes version

December 16 2022 age 26.5 years
findings
dual femur total mean BMD 0.928 g/cm2 t-score -1.2 z-score -1.2
AP spine L1-L4 BMD 1.224g/cm2 t-score 0.0 z-score 0.0

hip BMD had declined 9.4% since 2020 and this is significant based on lowest significant change of 0.014g/cm2

lumbar spine BMD had declined 8% since 2020 and this is significant based on lowest significant change of 0.046g/cm2

 

[Amgiji]

Just tell me how tall you are.

for context if you combined the population of next 3 towns it would still be less than 40,000 people.

and I've been in physical therapy for years so these number are accurate/official.

right now I'm 5'11.5"

(I was 6'4" but due to neuromuscular scoliosis I only hit that 2 times in as many years so, I count it as 6'2.5 as that was my standing height at any given point any given day)

back when I was 6'2.5"

went 4th of July mattress shopping 18 of the either 32 or 33 men (can't quite remember) I saw there were as tall or taller.

it's about a 3% chance to be 6'2"

(I am not a statistics major correct me if I'm wrong) but hitting a 3% chance 18 times is something like a 0.00000000644593109% chance.

about 2 times less likely than winning the jackpot in the lottery.

or put another way I had a 99.99999999355406891% chance of that not happening when I walked in the store.

or when I went to a club near the campus (still 6'2.5 then) I looked like a middle schooler got lost and wandered in.

out of the about 200 guys I was chest height to most of them,
I was only not shorter then 4 of them.

stuff like this happens every time I go outside.

I know what you are going to say "your making this up:, "your crazy", "that's impossible"
and I agree.
it SHOULD be impossible.

and having to deal with being screwed over by things with 100 million to 1 odds on a daily basis anyway is half of what drove me crazy.

that's why I don't want to give a number people will say you're fine and move on.

being 5'11.5" is not the problem. being in a situation where 5'11.5 buys you what 5'1 gets you almost everywhere else is.

being a college age man that looks like a middle schooler next to the other college age men(and the fucking highschoolers that use the ymca weight room)

is the problem.

I'm not going back outside till I'm tall enough to look like an adult next to other 20 something's
or they all have gigantism induced heart failure (or whatever it takes to fix what the fuck ever is wrong with here.

 

[RiceNKimchi]

You're 5 ft 11 inch. Your fucked in the head lmao. Most true bodybuilders are shorter manlets in real life but the height gives them aesthetics. Lmao dude.

Good troll you must live next to a bean stock and have to climb it to get to your club or campus and be chest height to others at 5 11. I bet your name is Jack!

 

[Rido]

I'm not going back outside till I'm tall enough to look like an adult next to other 20 something's
or they all have gigantism induced heart failure (or whatever it takes to fix what the fuck ever is wrong with here.

You need professional help. Like mental health professional help.

 

[Amgiji]

You need professional help. Like mental health professional help.

how many times to I

You're 5 ft 11 inch. Your fucked in the head lmao. Most true bodybuilders are shorter manlets in real life but the height gives them aesthetics. Lmao dude.

Good troll you must live next to a bean stock and have to climb it to get to your club or campus and be chest height to others at 5 11. I bet your name is Jack!

first, point proven

 

[Amgiji]

You need professional help. Like mental health professional help.

second how many times do I need to say BEEN IN THERAPY SINCE I WAS 3 IT DIDN'T HELP

 

[Amgiji]

and lastly as I said the first time this came up

regularly losing one to six hundred million odds, about plus 6 standard deviations from mean almost every day.
it's not statically possible for me to be that wrong every day of my goddamn life.

being 13 and watching what should happen to everyone else while nothing happened for you is hell.
hen over 10 years later out of nowhere you find out you still have a chance; you get a second chance. then just sitting and watch it slowly slip away as I'm not under 5 foot so no doctors care after looking for years getting osteopenia from being on arimidex for so long.
given a tight time frame before I lose everything again my last chance than after years you find a place where when other people ask a question like "advice first cycle" they get answers like (take x mg of y for z months make sure to add __ and cycle off x after 3 weeks)

and I get "how old are you?" "what's your height" "it's all in your head"
Non answers it makes me want to... there is no forum rules compliant ways to finish that sentence.

now that the peanut gallery is done commenting on my mental state, can we get back to giving dose advice as per the literal point and request of the thread.

before I lose my chance to act on this and am stuck looking like a middle schooler for my entire god fucking damn life.

 

[Rido]

second how many times do I need to say BEEN IN THERAPY SINCE I WAS 3 IT DIDN'T HELP

Honestly, nobody here can help you with your issues

 

[RiceNKimchi]

You're on a bodybuilding, AAS harm reduction forum. Go to betterhelp.com or whatever that annoying commercial is that pops up when I'm watching YouTube.

 

[RiceNKimchi]

Heard all the girls love this one trick!

 

[4Drago]

for context if you combined the population of next 3 towns it would still be less than 40,000 people.

and I've been in physical therapy for years so these number are accurate/official.

right now I'm 5'11.5"

(I was 6'4" but due to neuromuscular scoliosis I only hit that 2 times in as many years so, I count it as 6'2.5 as that was my standing height at any given point any given day)

back when I was 6'2.5"

went 4th of July mattress shopping 18 of the either 32 or 33 men (can't quite remember) I saw there were as tall or taller.

it's about a 3% chance to be 6'2"

(I am not a statistics major correct me if I'm wrong) but hitting a 3% chance 18 times is something like a 0.00000000644593109% chance.

about 2 times less likely than winning the jackpot in the lottery.

or put another way I had a 99.99999999355406891% chance of that not happening when I walked in the store.

or when I went to a club near the campus (still 6'2.5 then) I looked like a middle schooler got lost and wandered in.

out of the about 200 guys I was chest height to most of them,
I was only not shorter then 4 of them.

stuff like this happens every time I go outside.

I know what you are going to say "your making this up:, "your crazy", "that's impossible"
and I agree.
it SHOULD be impossible.

and having to deal with being screwed over by things with 100 million to 1 odds on a daily basis anyway is half of what drove me crazy.

that's why I don't want to give a number people will say you're fine and move on.

being 5'11.5" is not the problem. being in a situation where 5'11.5 buys you what 5'1 gets you almost everywhere else is.

being a college age man that looks like a middle schooler next to the other college age men(and the fucking highschoolers that use the ymca weight room)

is the problem.

I'm not going back outside till I'm tall enough to look like an adult next to other 20 something's
or they all have gigantism induced heart failure (or whatever it takes to fix what the fuck ever is wrong with here.

You're not a troll...your an idiot.

 

[dafqu1]

just be honest if u are a fat klinefelter neet. The advice remains the same: u can take steroids to increase androgenic and anabolic developement. Its not magic if u want muscles u still need to train and eat right. Also after puberty increasing androgenic dht will still increase 2nd male sex chars somewhat but its more likely to make u lose your hair blow up your prostate and age rapidly than give u a better jawline or something.

 

[Amgiji]

just be honest if u are a fat klinefelter neet. The advice remains the same: u can take steroids to increase androgenic and anabolic developement. Its not magic if u want muscles u still need to train and eat right. Also after puberty increasing androgenic dht will still increase 2nd male sex chars somewhat but its more likely to make u lose your hair blow up your prostate and age rapidly than give u a better jawline or something.

You're not a troll...your an idiot.

how so?