I'm really not huge I'm just pretty lean I'm 5"9 207 or now I went on stage at 184 I cut down from 215 trying to keep it lean for summer. As far as diet yea I'm pretty clean 90 percent the time. Normal day 4 cups rice. 32 oz meat, green beans, 1 yolk 7 whites, 1 cup oats, rice cakes peanut butter, 2 shakes, a protein bar, carbs in my workout water. Cheat days are mostly leg days. Pancakes, hamburger and fries. I'm hooked on halo ice cream now lol. I'm not good at bulking at all. I got the mind fuck issues if I start feeling fat or lose my abs I cut back. It's hard for me to let myself go. My one trainer who is going for his pro card today at nationlas always told me fuck the abs off season just eat and get big but I just can't that in my head. The first year I trained with him I I was my biggest ever about 225 I didnt like how I looked at all. I was big and much stronger but I personally didn't like the look. Some guys don't mind it and it's part of the game but to me I feel sloppy. As far as cycle right now 200 week test I've been on that for a month. I don't run straight deca only once cycle I bloated time I love npp it's my go to off seasons. I haven't run much orals I love anavar and I did winny for my show I run high tren low test so usually 200 week test 400-600 tren but I do get bad sides I can't sleep I sweat all night. It makes me emotional I won't lie but I love it. I've been on steroids 3 years now I started at 130 10 years ago got to 180 natty then went from there but first year I knew nothing and didn't know how to diet or workout. I've really been hard at it for about 2 years since I met some good people on here and where I live who taught me a lot