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First anavar cycle female

Happycamper said:
I get you. It's all still new to me...the juicing culture and the alienation from the average person when it comes to fitness. I used to be involved with a lot of fitness things, but on cycle I've become so isolated and secretive about my training - about my life in general. I've stopped drinking completely, sleeping a lot more, very strict on my diet. Ive deactivated all social media except for my small circle of snapchat friends.

I almost feel...I dunno how to describe it. Almost a bit guilty for the enhancement because I am enjoying it SO much? A little secretive because of the illegal aspect of it? Anxious because I don't want cycle to end but worried I'm doing damage to my body? Can't wait for the next cycle?

It's been a bit intense in my thought process lately. I'm not sure how normal all these feelings are. I'm pretty 'follow the rules/clean cut' sort of person. It's all such a life changing process in my little, routine world.
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I'm so glad you posted about this and feel a bit relieved to know that I'm not alone. I've been dealing with very similar feelings lately and just don't know how to wrap my mind around it all.

I plan to meet up with a bunch of close friends on Friday for a cocktails & dinner get-together, and the thought of it is really making me anxious and stressed out. I alienated myself from everyone as well, and don't know how to act and what to expect come Friday. I just don't want to be put in the predicament of everyone pressuring me as to why I am not drinking alcohol or eating everything in sight.

I'd like to think this will all get easier with experience.:)
 
Happycamper said:
I'm so fucking stoked right now...

Squats 225 for 5x5 aND 235 for a 3x2!!!!!
225 is like a real working set now instead of a 3RM or a struggle.

AHHHHHH. I want to squat allllllll day...:):):cool::p
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beast mode :)
Yall need to quit with all that guilt ridden anxiety business. Everyone suspects I'm on drugs...I just smile and keep squatting. They would "know" for sure but they can't fathom the idea of not drinking, complete self imposed social isolation, and tucked in by 9 every night just so I can go squat in a steel warehouse with no heat at 5am by myself everyday. They see the dedication, the meal prep, the injuries, the drive...but can't comprehend it. So they can't truly be certain I'm indeed on drugs. But if anyone saw me train it would remove all doubts...

I rock out no headphones, shirt off, do the lebron shit in my chalk bucket before my first heavy set...slap myself around a bit...then bite my lip til it bleeds. This morning I grit my teeth so hard I chipped the front one, happens at least a couple times a year, and anytime I pull over 2.5 bodyweight I get raging wood...murderboner :cool:
Fuck conventional. Forget the status quo. If you scared go to church.
Monsters stay in the shadows, true predators hunt in the dark.

Stay freaky MESO

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True dat homeslice!

I'm just amazed at the progress. I'm averaging 1800 calories and training 6 days a week...almost all heavy, 5-10 sets of compounds and every week everything is lighter. I was struggling for a few more pounds here and there or reps for a whole year and often regressing from my personal bests. To have this progress, although not tons of weight like a beginner, is making me so, so happy.

Such a personal achievement and I'm quietly so proud of myself!!
 
Happycamper said:
True dat homeslice!

I'm just amazed at the progress. I'm averaging 1800 calories and training 6 days a week...almost all heavy, 5-10 sets of compounds and every week everything is lighter. I was struggling for a few more pounds here and there or reps for a whole year and often regressing from my personal bests. To have this progress, although not tons of weight like a beginner, is making me so, so happy.

Such a personal achievement and I'm quietly so proud of myself!!
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you made some tremendous gains...
finish strong HC but here is the most important thing that no one is prepared for coming off their first cycle! You have to keep intensity up when you come off!!! Gotta stay committed and disciplined to your training regiment, intensity, and diet or you will be shocked how quickly your new-found progress will wither away. Anyone can make good progress on cycle but you want to keep it up and rolling!! don't backslide and fall off girl...EAT BIG
 
I don't think I should put on more muscle. Seriously...lol. I will probably keep up the intensity but not the volume. I don't want to be any bigger than I am. My quads are exploding through my jeans, I can barely cross my legs right now at my desk.

I wish I was a man so I could just eat and lift all day and just be huge and swole and workout shirtless with a huge boner and tell everyone to suck my dick if they don't like it.

Just doesn't work that way. I have a suit jacket and pencil skirt to fit into.
 
Happycamper said:
I don't think I should put on more muscle. Seriously...lol. I will probably keep up the intensity but not the volume. I don't want to be any bigger than I am. My quads are exploding through my jeans, I can barely cross my legs right now at my desk.

I wish I was a man so I could just eat and lift all day and just be huge and swole and workout shirtless with a huge boner and tell everyone to suck my dick if they don't like it.

Just doesn't work that way. I have a suit jacket and pencil skirt to fit into.
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Ha your take on what it's like to be a guy made my day. I've taken my shirt off in the gym a few times but it was at the end of my workout. That's fucking disgusting to workout shirtless.
 
OdieM said:
Ha your take on what it's like to be a guy made my day. I've taken my shirt off in the gym a few times but it was at the end of my workout. That's fucking disgusting to workout shirtless.
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Odie, that was all plagiarized from TEK's post lol.

Only because I saw the Jungle Book remake last weekend:
 
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