OK so I'm gonna be straight up with you guys. Before you lay into me, just please bear in mind I'm not looking for anyone's validation. I am prepared for whatever scrutiny this community has to offer. This is my story:
I'm a 28 yr old black dude. For all my life I've been the thin weak nerdy type. I'm 6'1" and I weigh approximately 160lbs on an empty stomach. I'm what they call a hardgainer -- I can easily eat a ton of food and not gain a pound.
Like many Americans, I joined the gym this year to fulfill one of my New Year's Resolutions. I also started a new high calorie diet (around 3500 cal per day) to support my new gym routine. However, January has barely drawn to a close, and I've already given up on my new diet and workout routines.
Why did I give up? It's not because I'm a quitter or because I'm lazy. It's because I recognize that my biology is working against me. I don't want to waste my time punching against the wind if there is a more effective way out there to achieve my objective.
I'm nowhere near my natural peak right now. I think for my height (6'1"), my natural peak is around 195 pounds. Yes I know it's possible for me to keep at it and eventually reach my natural peak; but that would take a gigantic investment in time, money, and sweat for me to get there. I've set a goal to hit 185 this summer and possibly 195 by the end of the year. I doubt I can get there naturally.
Because of my high metabolic rate, I'd have to spend an inordinate amount of money on food to support the kind of diet I need to gain muscle. I just don't have the time and patience to make that kind of investment only to see very little gains naturally.
That's why I've come to the decision to use anabolic steroids. It's something that I've considered carefully and I've determined that it's the right course for me. Yes I know many will tell me I am not ready for this and that I should try get more experience in the gym and achieve my natural peak first but I am not deterred.
For most of you, steroids are a way to get past your peak and become that beast you've always dream of becoming. I, on the other hand, am not looking to be a beast (at least not right now). I just want to get to my 'natural' peak. I'll be employing AAS as a vehicle to help me get there.
Yes I know that AAS by themselves won't make me muscular and ripped. I know that I have to put in the hard work at the gym and have the right diet to realize the gains from any AAS cycle. I am fully prepared for that. I am also aware of the side effects of the different steroids out there.
This is an informed adult decision that I am making.
I am already planning my first cycle which will consist of Test and Dbol. My biggest issue right now is settling on the sources. I am open to any suggestions you might have on that. I pretty much know which labs I want to get my gear from (Alpha Pharma is at the top of my list), but it's finding the right source for the lab that's holding me back right now as there is so much divergent information out there about any given source.
OK I know this is a long thread, and I hope you haven't fallen asleep by now but I'm interested in knowing your thoughts on this...
