Oh I know I'm fucked up man don't worry. I wouldn't have hit 300+ pounds before 20 if I didn't. I really don't know how to fix it, and I'm considering just swapping to something different like Vaping, but I don't get addicted to anything, haven't tried hard shit though, but don't plan to.
It's a mix of fucked hormones (morbidly obese parents binging at buffets in the womb), a fucked up outlook on food (I was awarded with 2 pounds of chicken strips on friday if I got through school, or awarded myself with a pizza and more for dominos when i could buy myself), and really no way to fix it. But eh, we all got vices.
Gonna add a non-nic-vape to my arsenal though, maybe a low nic, nic gum didnt do shit for me. That shit is way healthier than being fat tbh, and my cardio is good enough. Doubt I'll use it though.
Eventually I'll break and get some help, but whatever this is a steroid source thread i'm not gonna hog it with my story. I think therapy is stupid, I clearly know what's wrong with me, I don't see how someone can fix it. But apparently it works. I'm stubborn as fuck, so idk
amen, i can easily put down 10 pounds of real weight in a week.
Therapy is not stupid. Unless you have a stupid therapist.