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temptation and striving for more.... but health should be the main goal in life

I'm a bit worried about you too. I dont get why you add stuff like prami and GH and then you've got masteron ok and then sometimes proviron and then you've got tren?

You seem like you have an addictive personality man and it will never be enough. You will never feel good enough. Your libido will never be good enough. You will always want more more more. The superman syndrome as you called it once.

I'm coming off TRT over xmas (few weeks off holidays so i can take clomid and stuff without messing with my life) and i am looking forward to being natural again.

I've done the TRT thing now for almost four years. It's been good at times and bad at times but overall i had a better life without it even if my libido wasnt as strong and it took me longer to get big in the gym. Everything else was better including my mood, well-being, and just overall health.

Gluck with this man. I'll catch ya on the otherside of natural.

(im also looking forward to get my fertility back and dropping monster sized loads on girls im banging. i miss that shit. my cum is like watered down piss now. hahaha)
 
no, it's not like that

it is not a case of "it's never enough"

my goal is a penis that works to get hard on demand whenever needed and stay hard

my goal is to have the desire and drive to want sex and want it enough to go after it on a daily basis

my goal is to have a lean healthy body that looks good and feels good

simple really, nothing addictive or too unusual about that
 
foreveryoung said:
no, it's not like that

it is not a case of "it's never enough"

my goal is a penis that works to get hard on demand whenever needed and stay hard

my goal is to have the desire and drive to want sex and want it enough to go after it on a daily basis

my goal is to have a lean healthy body that looks good and feels good

simple really, nothing addictive or too unusual about that
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Sounds good to me :)
 
well today is an experiment day

interrupting the usual protocol and trying some different things today to see if a recipe for on-demand performance can be perfected when things really need to be perfect for a perfect night with an important girl

this morning did 15mg test acetate, 20mg masteron prop, 5 mg trestolone, 10mg test cyp, 25mg proviron, 10mg cialis, took 250mcg of ropinirole, injected 2mg of bremelanotide

will take another 25mg proviron and 100mg Viagra later, also took some of a herbal supplement that has tribulus and tongkat ali in it and a few other things

going to see a girl later tonight, hoping for very good things
 
I was still feeling a little unsure through the early evening, but all of the sudden a few minutes ago spontaneous erection just happened and it is persisting and solid. I'm going to her place in a couple hours, confidence just went up with this happening, hope it gets better still as the night goes on :)

haven't taken the Viagra yet either
 
should mention that for about 5 minutes before this erection popped up I actually felt a little gross and nauseous which is a known side effect of the brem, which didn't add to my confidence because I was thinking it was just going to make me feel lousy with no benefit, but then the erection came out of nowhere and it is still hanging around after 5 minutes with no stimulation
 
erection faded away now, of course a tiny bit of doubt of confidence now creeps back in, but I think with the Viagra all should be fine when it comes time
 
erection back and starting to feel really turned on

have to resist playing with it because masturbation tends to make for poorer function later

confidence building :drooling:
 
bax said:
...wow
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if you notice, doses are all quite low, there is a synergy expected with the stack of multiple androgens of various structures all in low doses

the ancillaries address other potential issues like prolactin and dopamine brain chemistry

and the pde5 inhibitors are a staple of course
 
took the 100 mg Viagra before I got there

felt a little nervous and at first libido was not apparent and no signs of erection flow, but got with her and then erection came strong and felt good, so that was successful at that point

but...

I was lasting for a good while, and then all of the sudden felt the erection waning and got a little scared and then lost it before cumming, felt a bit embarrassed because she was naked in front of me and I was worried that she would think I wasn't turned on by her. erection was gone and I excused myself to go to the washroom where I just turned on the water and splashed cold water on my face and stood there thinking for a minute. went back and told her I needed a break and made up some kind of excuse about if I get close to cumming sometimes I need a break to recharge blah blah blah, she said that was understandable...

well about 10 minutes later the erection came back but I wasn't feeling all that turned on and it was apparent that orgasm would be unlikely, that erection only lasted a few minutes and it waned too, the night was pretty much over and I hadn't orgasmed or ejaculated, although fortunately she did, but it still feels like a fail when you don't cum, and the girl is probably left scratching her head as to why you aren't turned on enough by her or something

so I don't know what to think, I am not in the function situation I was a little while back when I was on the caber and orgasming a few times a day. I have even been abstaining from masturbation recently, sticking with only orgasming or trying to orgasm when with a woman, so underuse if anything, when I was function better a little while back I was able to masturbate 3 times in a day and go have great sex with a girl the next morning

I wish I had cabaser, or maybe I need to give the ropinirole more time and more of a chance, but I really am not sure

on a plus note for the night, she said "you have a great body, you are in really good shape"
 
thing is, I didn't orgasm tonight, I came close but never went over, and now I have no real desire to try to orgasm

I haven't ejaculated in 3 or 4 days too, since with the girl the last time


this is not where I want to be as far as urgent libido stands
 
well, not too long after the last post, erection and libido came on strong, wanked hard and had a powerful orgasm

this is what is driving me nuts, the fully on, fully off, and on and off that seems to go from one extreme to the other moment by moment

when natural as a young man, I remember build up used to build up in intensity and urgency, the longer you went without the more intense the urgency, and if you played with it for too long it would get closer and closer to orgasm, more and more turned on, to where a slight breeze would eventually be all it would take to push you over to orgasm

now it is not like that, the build up can shut down to zero instantly and then have to start all over again, there doesn't seem to be that build up of urgency ever

still on the quest for answers and improvement.......
 
... it makes it hard to know what to change if anything, when function can be so good at one moment, rock hard erection, powerful orgasm. but with the same exact protocol even 15 minutes earlier, ED
 
waking up now

lots of morning wood, and more wood

pretty sad about how things ended up last night, was it timing? should I have done my "stack" 12 hours before sex? not sure what I need to do to get back to where I need to be, drop the test altogether? stick with the ropinirole? or none? more test and add in the AI again? change nothing just experiment with timing? (my penis is rock hard with no stimulation while I am typing this). masturbate to completion more often? (seems like days off doesn't help matters, maybe function is a case of use it or lose it, it does seem like my function is better the next session after I have orgasmed, whereas I have noticed the dreaded "libido and orgasm with no erection" phenomenon usually only occurs with me after I have stimulated for an extended period with no orgasm

lots of things to think about, I wish I had kept a much more detailed daily log through the last 6 months but the argument with the mod about what is or is not androgen replacement therapy caused me to leave out a lot of what now would be invaluable info and keep things in my ever changing signature which is not as useful
 
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