@Desibaba i found the peace of mind thinking the Pantheism way... “i” think “we” are part of universe being made of matter.. so we re the universe.. and universe found a way to be conscious of itself.. the matter should always be existed, and “for ever” Will be.. i think no escape from the universe exist and nothing can happen from NOTHING, because Nothing means Nothing, so nothing simply never existed and never will.
As “humans” we think based on info we get, so it’s “natural” thinking about the concept of God, thinking about Pantheism, believing in every single god invented by humans. I think we are only part of universe that is doing something different from being supernovas, blackholes , expanding dark matter etc.
And i see that this fuckin system, needs all the shit it has to keep going. The pain as emotion, the worst thing in the universe, and the “only reason” i hate life and being a human. I m so empathic , thinking about the tragedy most have to going trough, the worst i mean and don t wanna name, i speak about the worst physical and mental sufferings.
We are born to suffer.
Our world needs the great disequilibrium it has between smart and stupid people, to keep going, as animal world needs heterogeneity too.
We as humans have more phantasy and power so we can suck so much more than them.
About religion, i suggest reading “Genealogy of morals” from F. Nietzsche, an interesting book that explains why and because of religion.
Some smart people succeded in taking advantage of weak minds in search of answers or help, and create some concepts and then morals to bound the “believers” to them in order to gain money (donations, and so on) and political power when possible.
(search about Vatican real estate assets)
So, i fear that, as being made of matter and being here since “ever” and “for ever”, will always be here in other forms, with other minds and consciousness, maybe last life you were a stupid and were happy, on the next you ll find reading this message and thinking, etc... i think we never know about precedents and future lives, but in every moment of the whole time space, we, the universe, will be for ever alive, and this motherfuckinly sucks.. i would go out of the universe and wanna never feel anything anymore anytime. I would be a fuckin black hole for ever, without consciousness. The worst part is that time is a Relative concept Create by our mind as a measurement system, and so i fear that universe that seems to be keeping expanding, it will continue till collapse because all forces like gravity etc will be to weak and everything will blow out, until a new big bang will come, and so on.
i dont care really much however, maybe next life i ll be a rich beautiful chick and can Live with peace of mind and a beauty stepsister to playin lesbo with in my room instead of thinking about universe
