We hit this phase in the relationship where it was time to put more on the table. She knew I had used them in the past. The hard part is we're both in A.A. and have a checkered past of drug use. We both have many years sober now and I figured it was a deal breaker. I didn't even ask to continue using them. I just told her I was on a blast when we started talking and had stopped til I could be honest with her. She just flat out gave me permission to continue. I had come to the conclusion in my mind that I was done. She is a nurse and she had already been researching AAS. She damn well knew. The honesty with her was huge. She even said she was thankful to have me afterward. Didn't see that coming.