Crystal's 1st Cycle Log. Anavar Only.

[Happycamper]

Thanks for sharing your experience. Certain things that my children do will get me so irked as well, and I have to remind myself not to loose it. I don't, but sometimes I feel like I am on the verge. The difference is that my husband just loses it and lashes out at me and the kids. It's really pissing me off.

Are you ok? How do you deal with it? Bottle it up or confront him about it?

Lastly...are you afraid at all?

 

[Crystal234]

Are you ok? How do you deal with it? Bottle it up or confront him about it?

Lastly...are you afraid at all?

I'm okay. Thank you so much for asking. Just a little overwhelmed and have other things going on in my life that are messing with my head. I am going to have a sit-down talk with him tomorrow and confront him. I didn't bottle up anything yesterday, however I really had to try not to lose it. I'm not afraid of him doing anything to me physically since that's never been an issue. Been there done that and I refuse to put up with that type of behavior again.

 

[Happycamper]

I'm okay. Thank you so much for asking. Just a little overwhelmed and have other things going on in my life that are messing with my head. I am going to have a sit-down talk with him tomorrow and confront him. I didn't bottle up anything yesterday, however I really had to try not to lose it. I'm not afraid of him doing anything to me physically since that's never been an issue. Been there done that and I refuse to put up with that type of behavior again.

Ok girly. Good luck. He will most probably take your concern to heart and do his best to be better for you and the kids.

 

[Sampei]

But the difference is that you know when to take a deep breath and just walk away or let it go.


Mental note taken, lol.

But as you can see it's not the tren the problem or any AAS, if you can't manage your anger or just take a deep breath and revaluate your situation then you have a underlying problems.

I believe that most of the violent or well ppl that can escalate quickly from some verbal abuse to straight violence are the one that have nothing to lose OR that knows that can get away with it.

Because I can't see any normal person that has a job/family/loved ones etc, risking to get arrested or worse for a bit of pride or some stupid arguments.

It's like when you are in a club and someone hit your shoulder passing by, you can turn back and smack that asshole down or you can just ignore it and continue on your path. 99% of the time is not worth it, my time is precious and I have a lot to lose if I get in a fight compared to some retarded lowlife.

So yeah, it all depends... as always

 

[Trapmonster]

Thanks for sharing your experience. Certain things that my children do will get me so irked as well, and I have to remind myself not to loose it. I don't, but sometimes I feel like I am on the verge. The difference is that my husband just loses it and lashes out at me and the kids. It's really pissing me off.

Yeah, thats not cool. I hate it when people act on temper when not thinking of the consequences. Not good to lash out on the kids and the wife for insignificant reasons

 

[Crystal234]

Yesterday was Day 19. Weighed in at 133.3. My weight is slowly going up which is great. What's better is I'm still looking leaner even with the slow rise of numbers on the scale. Waist is smaller although I am gaining everywhere else. Hell yes. Give it to me!

The tricep kickbacks were tough at the end of my workout, even though I was using baby sized dumbbells, ha. I finally pulled the trigger and ordered some Taurine for the pumps and cramps I've been getting while lifting. Thank goodness for Amazon Prime. I should be getting a package in the mail today.

Got a compliment from a fellow lady lifter at my gym. She's a freakin' beast, strong and muscular. She commented about how I've been going ham on my workouts lately and how it's really starting to show. I was also asked what I'm doing differently, if I'm taking anything and if I plan to compete. The thought of competing has crossed my mind, but I don't think I have the nerves to do it. I'm too much of an anxious and nervous person and would probably trip or pass out on stage. LOL! No thank you.


DB shoulder press
30lb. DB's 3 x 10
25lbs. 1 x 8


DB side lateral raise
15lb. DB's 2 x 15

DB shrugs
30lbs. DB's x 13
30lbs. 2 x 15
20lbs. 1 x 5

Tricep push down
#3 plate x12
#3 plate x12
#3 plate x12
#2 plate x12

DB upright row
25lb. DB's 3 x 8

BW dips
8, 12, 8

Overhead press machine
30lbs. 4 x 12

DB tricep kickbacks
5lbs. 2 x 12

 

[Devika]

Yesterday was Day 19. Weighed in at 133.3. My weight is slowly going up which is great. What's better is I'm still looking leaner even with the slow rise of numbers on the scale. Waist is smaller although I am gaining everywhere else. Hell yes. Give it to me!

The tricep kickbacks were tough at the end of my workout, even though I was using baby sized dumbbells, ha. I finally pulled the trigger and ordered some Taurine for the pumps and cramps I've been getting while lifting. Thank goodness for Amazon Prime. I should be getting a package in the mail today.

Got a compliment from a fellow lady lifter at my gym. She's a freakin' beast, strong and muscular. She commented about how I've been going ham on my workouts lately and how it's really starting to show. I was also asked what I'm doing differently, if I'm taking anything and if I plan to compete. The thought of competing has crossed my mind, but I don't think I have the nerves to do it. I'm too much of an anxious and nervous person and would probably trip or pass out on stage. LOL! No thank you.


DB shoulder press
30lb. DB's 3 x 10
25lbs. 1 x 8


DB side lateral raise
15lb. DB's 2 x 15

DB shrugs
30lbs. DB's x 13
30lbs. 2 x 15
20lbs. 1 x 5

Tricep push down
#3 plate x12
#3 plate x12
#3 plate x12
#2 plate x12

DB upright row
25lb. DB's 3 x 8

BW dips
8, 12, 8

Overhead press machine
30lbs. 4 x 12

DB tricep kickbacks
5lbs. 2 x 12

I think you should def compete!!!
You have an amazing body and it would be fun. Im actually considering to enter one myself prob next year.
There's a couple of girls in my gym that compete and they really inspire me. I want to put on a good 10 lbs of muscle before I do so though.
Maybe after that primo cycle?

I hope "the talk" went well with him.
I'm glad you're confronting him about instead of suppressing it. Communication is key.

 

[XKawN]

Amazing physique miss crystal...

 

[Crystal234]

I think you should def compete!!!
You have an amazing body and it would be fun. Im actually considering to enter one myself prob next year.
There's a couple of girls in my gym that compete and they really inspire me. I want to put on a good 10 lbs of muscle before I do so though.
Maybe after that primo cycle?

I hope "the talk" went well with him.
I'm glad you're confronting him about instead of suppressing it. Communication is key.

Hey girlie! I used to want to compete in bikini a few years back but I'm just not feeling it anymore. I think watching a couple of my girlfriends go through the whole process of competition prep turned me off to it. They looked fabulous but hated how they felt physically and mentally, especially towards the last half of prep. Their calorie restrictions were too low and way too much cardio. However, I do understand that not all coaches are alike and everyone's experience is different.

Maybe when my little ones are a bit older, I'll give it a try. At least then I'll have the time to be able to focus 100% and give it my all. I don't want to jump into it knowing that I could've done a lot better. Plus, I need more muscles to be a figure girl.

I can totally see you doing bikini and that low dose primo cycle should be all that you will need.

Well, he was home yesterday but we didn't get a chance to really talk about it. Busy day with the kids. Will try again tomorrow. But the upside is that I noticed him trying to keep his cool when he would get frustrated. We had a good day and no fighting, thank goodness. I'm not the type who can really bottle things up. Well, I try to at first but eventually I end up blowing up and it all comes out. Not good, I know.

 

[Crystal234]

Amazing physique miss crystal...

Thank you!

 

[Happycamper]

Hey girlie! I used to want to compete in bikini a few years back but I'm just not feeling it anymore. I think watching a couple of my girlfriends go through the whole process of competition prep turned me off to it. They looked fabulous but hated how they felt physically and mentally, especially towards the last half of prep. Their calorie restrictions were too low and way too much cardio. However, I do understand that not all coaches are alike and everyone's experience is different.

Maybe when my little ones are a bit older, I'll give it a try. At least then I'll have the time to be able to focus 100% and give it my all. I don't want to jump into it knowing that I could've done a lot better. Plus, I need more muscles to be a figure girl.

I was actually talking about this on Friday with my coworker. She's in her 50's and was telling me about her friend who just competed in bikini. Her friend waited until she was older, hired a coach and did the training. Bikini is grueling...so much cardio and food restriction. Her conversation was mainly started because she was telling me about her friend's amazing self control when hosting her daughter's baby shower bang in the middle of prep and how she didn't eat a single bite.

Then she went on to not win a thing. But Bikini is tough - very much a beauty pageant and dependent on how attractive the woman is to the judges.

 

[Crystal234]

I was actually talking about this on Friday with my coworker. She's in her 50's and was telling me about her friend who just competed in bikini. Her friend waited until she was older, hired a coach and did the training. Bikini is grueling...so much cardio and food restriction. Her conversation was mainly started because she was telling me about her friend's amazing self control when hosting her daughter's baby shower bang in the middle of prep and how she didn't eat a single bite.

Then she went on to not win a thing. But Bikini is tough - very much a beauty pageant and dependent on how attractive the woman is to the judges.

Yes, I hear about stories like that all the time. It's a huge turn off. I love fitness and everything about it and don't want to turn it into something that I dread due to a bad competition prep. One of my girlfriends did a figure competition and she also had the exact same complaints as the bikini girl I know. She already had a great muscle base to begin with, but by the time she was stage ready, she had dieted down so much that she lost a fairly large amount of muscle that she had worked so hard to build over the years. Can you imagine that? I would be so upset if that were me. I don't think her coach really knew what he was doing and I don't think my friend did all that much research on her own. Had she done it, she would've seen all the red flags.

I agree that the bikini division is a lot like a beauty pageant since they base your scores off your entire look, not just your physique. Hair, nails, makeup, etc.

I love figure girl physiques and might try a competition in the future but I hate all the politics that come with it. In any division, there aren't any strict guidelines as far as what you need to do in order to place well. You just kind of have to be at the right show at the right time. It all depends on what the judges personal preference is. I don't know if I can handle my body being scrutinized and scored by a group of people that are so called experts and basing it on what their personal likes and dislikes are.

 

[Crystal234]

Yesterday was day 20.

Weighed in at 133.3lbs.

I mostly focused on upper back but incorporated a bit of glute work towards the end.

The highlight of my workout was when I broke my pull-ups PR and did 7. I'm looking forward to the day that I can do 10 consecutively. Not too far from now, hopefully!

Body weight pull-ups (dead hang)
7,5

Seated Lat pull down
#7 plate 2x10
#5 plate 1x12
#3 plate burnout

Plate-loaded Lat pull down
45's 3x10

Cable low row
#7 plate 3x8
#5 plate 2x12 w/2 sec. hold per rep.

Standing cable pullovers
#2 plate 3x12 **focused on the the squeeze**

Face-pulls
#4 plate 4x12

Heavy band hip thrust
3x12 superset with band hip abduction 3x15

Reverse hyper
20lbs. 2x12

Hip abduction
200lbs. 1x20 standing *superset with* 155lbs. 1x20 seated - twice.

 

[Happycamper]

Pullups are a huge marker of strength and fitness, especially for female. That is so awesome!!

 

[Crystal234]

Day 21

Weighed in at 133.2.

Well, I'm finally in the 300 Hip Thrust Club. Yayuhh!! I PR'd with three sets of 305 for 6. I was going to attempt an even 300 but last minute decided not to be a chicken and try for 305. Surprisingly, it wasn't as tough as I thought it would be. I was even able to hold each rep for two seconds at the top, and the last rep of each set was held for six seconds.

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Dear Diary,

I bumped into a friend of mine at the gym today and she told me that she was thinking in her head, "Hey, that girl over there looks really strong!" And then she realized it was me. I laughed nervously, thanked her real quick and went on my way. I feel a little guilty because her and I have worked out together a handful of times and I know she busts her ass in the gym as well. I felt a little obligated to share with her my dirty little secret but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. Not because I'm greedy, not because I don't want her to make any possible extra gainz, but because I don't want to be judged for the choices that I made. I know it's in my best interest to start getting used to it since this won't be my last rodeo. I will try hard not to overthink things and take it for what it is. A nice compliment. And move on.

Sincerely Yours,
-Crystal


BB hip thrust
305lbs. 3x6 ***2 second hold per rep and 6 second hold on last rep per set***

Squats
95lbs. x 12
95lbs. x 12
95lbs. x 12

45 degree hyper
30lbs. 2x12

RDL
90lbs. 2x15

Leg extension
100lbs. 1 x 2
180lbs. 1 x 5
160lbs. 1 x 8
140lbs. 1 x 10
120lbs. 1 x 10

Cable kickbacks
#3 plate 3x10

Cable abductor
#2 plate 3x10

Seated calf
90lbs. 1 x 20
100lbs. 2 x 20

Various abs


Sides are still mild: Slightly oily hair and higher libido. I did notice today that my clit is a little swollen but it's not anything to be alarmed about. Appetite is normal and I've still been drinking at least a gallon of water per day. I haven't cut out my morning cup of coffee since starting my cycle. I refuse to part with it because I love it too much.

 

[Crystal234]

Pullups are a huge marker of strength and fitness, especially for female. That is so awesome!!

Thank you, beautiful! I remember how excited I was to be able to do just one. Lol!

 

[Crystal234]

What's up Meso peeps,

I have been behind on updating this log. I keep meaning to do it in the evening when the kids fall asleep but I either get side-tracked and forget or accidentally fall asleep super early. Whoops!

I've been deviating A LOT from the original workout plan I was following and kind of started going back to split body parts, except I make sure to add in glute work three times a week. What can I say, I'm a creature of habit.

Day 22, Monday 4/25

Weighed in at 134.2.

Mostly chest and tri's with glutes thrown in. Broke my tiny PR on flat bench. It feels good to see the numbers sloooowly go up. I remember how difficult it used to be for me to even bench the bar, ha.

Flat bench
Warmup/bar
85lbs. x 5 PR!! <---
85lbs. x 5
75lbs. x 10

Seated machine chest press
25lb. plates x 15
25lbs. x 15
25lbs. x 15
25lbs. x 12

Cable fly low pully
30lbs. 1 x 10
30lbs. 1 x 10
30lbs. 1 x 12
15lbs. 1 x 20

Incline bench
Warmup w/bar
65lbs. x 7
65lbs. x 8
65lbs. x 7

45 degree hyper 35lbs
3 x 12 *Glutes were burning bad since I had DOMS from hip thrusting 305lbs. the day before!*

Band lateral walk
2 x 20 *Booty was done for and I had a hard time finishing these*

Cable tricep pull down
#3 plate x 6
#2 plate x 12
#2 plate x 12
#2 plate x 12

BW tricep dips
12, 12, 10

DB kickbacks
10lbs. 3x6

Post workout notes: A regular at my gym was showing me a few other chest exercises that I've never done before and I didn't add these to my log. I am going to be sore tomorrow! I can already feel it.

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Day 23, Tuesday 4/26

Weighed in at 134.3.

I'm noticing a bit of water retention and I think it could be because "the time of the month" is around the corner. Last month I got it on the 1st, but I'm really crossing my fingers that the Anavar will keep it away. It's not looking good so far, ha.

Super happy that I broke my squat PR from last week! I made sure to have a spotter this time, just in case.

BB squats
Warmup with bar
135 x 8
175 x 5 PR!! <--
155 x 8
135 x 8

DB shoulder press
30lb 2 x 10
30lbs 1 x 8
25lbs 1 x 10

Kettlebell sumo DL
80lbs x 15
100lbs. x 15
100lbs. x 15

BB upright row
40lbs. 1 x 10
40lbs. 1 x 12
40lbs. 1 x 12
50lbs. 1 x 10

DB bent over Lateral raise (elbows tucked in)
15lbs 1 x 15
20lbs 1 x 10
20lbs 1 x 10

Db Lat raise
15lbs 1 x 15
15lbs. 1 x 15
15lbs. 1 x 15

Standing hip abduction
200lbs X 20 * I always get funny looks when I do these *
Superset with
170lbs. X 20 ---twice

Face pulls
#4 plate 1 x 15
#4 plate 1 x 20
#3 plate 1 x 20
#3 plate 1 x 20

Leg press
180lbs. x 10
270lbs. x 10 *My husband cut my workout short after this*

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Day 24, Wednesday 4/27

Weighed in this morning at 134.8. Damn, the scale just keeps going up by a tiny bit and I highly doubt it's muscle.

I'm still noticing a little water retention although I've been consuming plenty of H2O. I really really hope I don't get my menstrual cycle soon.

My body is sore from the last two days, so I decided to take a rest day today.

I started taking Taurine as well, and hopefully that will help with the painful muscle pumps and cramps that interfere with my workouts.

Sleep has been so-so but I have been feeling a lot more tired in the early evenings now.

Still mild sides such as a tiny bit of oily hair, libido still high, a few muscle cramps, and I noticed that I'm starting to sweat a little while I workout. Yes, your read that right. I hardly EVER sweat. No, really. It's to the point where I was actually excited when I saw and felt a trickle of sweat between my cleavage and my lower back, ha.

Tomorrow is back day and I cannot wait.

 

[Devika]

Hey girlie! I used to want to compete in bikini a few years back but I'm just not feeling it anymore. I think watching a couple of my girlfriends go through the whole process of competition prep turned me off to it. They looked fabulous but hated how they felt physically and mentally, especially towards the last half of prep. Their calorie restrictions were too low and way too much cardio. However, I do understand that not all coaches are alike and everyone's experience is different.

Maybe when my little ones are a bit older, I'll give it a try. At least then I'll have the time to be able to focus 100% and give it my all. I don't want to jump into it knowing that I could've done a lot better. Plus, I need more muscles to be a figure girl.

I can totally see you doing bikini and that low dose primo cycle should be all that you will need.

Well, he was home yesterday but we didn't get a chance to really talk about it. Busy day with the kids. Will try again tomorrow. But the upside is that I noticed him trying to keep his cool when he would get frustrated. We had a good day and no fighting, thank goodness. I'm not the type who can really bottle things up. Well, I try to at first but eventually I end up blowing up and it all comes out. Not good, I know.

Prepping for a show can def be exhausting. I know a couple of girls who do figure and bikini. They are just absolutely miserable towards the end.
I would like it just for the experience. I'm so obsessive and detail oriented that I may actually enjoy it.
We'll see, maybe next year. Right now I just want to get big lol

I'm glad things with him are improving and that he's making a conscious effort to keep his cool.
Communication is everything. As long as you guys keep that open, anything can be resolved.

 

[Devika]

Day 21

Weighed in at 133.2.

Well, I'm finally in the 300 Hip Thrust Club. Yayuhh!! I PR'd with three sets of 305 for 6. I was going to attempt an even 300 but last minute decided not to be a chicken and try for 305. Surprisingly, it wasn't as tough as I thought it would be. I was even able to hold each rep for two seconds at the top, and the last rep of each set was held for six seconds.

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Dear Diary,

I bumped into a friend of mine at the gym today and she told me that she was thinking in her head, "Hey, that girl over there looks really strong!" And then she realized it was me. I laughed nervously, thanked her real quick and went on my way. I feel a little guilty because her and I have worked out together a handful of times and I know she busts her ass in the gym as well. I felt a little obligated to share with her my dirty little secret but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. Not because I'm greedy, not because I don't want her to make any possible extra gainz, but because I don't want to be judged for the choices that I made. I know it's in my best interest to start getting used to it since this won't be my last rodeo. I will try hard not to overthink things and take it for what it is. A nice compliment. And move on.

Sincerely Yours,
-Crystal


BB hip thrust
305lbs. 3x6 ***2 second hold per rep and 6 second hold on last rep per set***

Squats
95lbs. x 12
95lbs. x 12
95lbs. x 12

45 degree hyper
30lbs. 2x12

RDL
90lbs. 2x15

Leg extension
100lbs. 1 x 2
180lbs. 1 x 5
160lbs. 1 x 8
140lbs. 1 x 10
120lbs. 1 x 10

Cable kickbacks
#3 plate 3x10

Cable abductor
#2 plate 3x10

Seated calf
90lbs. 1 x 20
100lbs. 2 x 20

Various abs


Sides are still mild: Slightly oily hair and higher libido. I did notice today that my clit is a little swollen but it's not anything to be alarmed about. Appetite is normal and I've still been drinking at least a gallon of water per day. I haven't cut out my morning cup of coffee since starting my cycle. I refuse to part with it because I love it too much.

Dang girl 305 lbs hip thrust!! That is amazing.
So you use the smith machine or just a regular Olympic bar?
I do mine w the SM and I wanna move to the Olympic bar but I have no idea how to set it up lol

 

[OdieM]

Yeah you tend to sweat when you break PRs every week

Impressive numbers. Good job