Learned some things about my brother in spending time with his friends over the last two weeks. Also learned quite a bit about me as a result.
This will once again be a daily log. Mostly to help my accountability. I’m also no longer taking a work from home route and was back in the office 6am today. Also think this will help with many things, not just bodybuilding.
I lost 20lbs between the day he passed and when I told my coach and good friend that this needs to be the anchor I hold to keep the rest of me on track as we figure out life without my brother. This will be my third day back on plan. I started Saturday at 206.
I’m never one to put explicit goals out in public, but his passing changes my perspective on many things; my goals and work being among them. Another massive blow in the ever creeping realization that time is far more fragile a concept than 99.9% of people care to consider, if they consider it at all.
This’ll seem cheesy to some. Stupid to others. Arrogant to those who don’t know me. One thing my brother had, for better or worse, was assuredness in who he was and what he could do. I could use a little more of that. In no way is this me guaranteeing it. I’m not that naive. The IFBB is as competitive as it’s ever been. But the goal is an Olympia stage by 2024.
Appreciate your guys’ well wishes and such. Right or wrong this Is generally how I cope with things. So here we go.